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Mandakini, the sacred mountain of Ganeshpuri

My Guru Resides Within Me

Pic of Shri Guru

 Shri Guru

 

Her name is Chidvilasananda

She is the Mother of the Universe

All beings reside within Her

 

She is Citi, the Devi Kundalini

She is Shiva, the Atman, the Self 

the Presence beyond Tri-dev 

 

It is She who is Anuttara;

that infinite, unfettered Reality,  unlimited, and unbound. 

She is Ram, She is Krsna

She is Kailash, Vaikunth, is Hers

 

Within Her, ceaselessly, 

cycles of creation arise;

arisen, they ceaselessly subside

 

She is the great Void, the Silence

She is also the experiencer  

of that void, of that silence.  

 

She is every sound, 

soft, or gentle, or tumultuous; 

She is every bedlam, or noisy din

 

Forever She scires Her Self, 

We are Her means 

 

We too are fully known; 

our experiences are Hers, through

our thoughts, words and deeds.

She sees as us, She hears as us,

She feels our every feeling

 

Forever She reveals,

Forever She revels,

My holy Mother

 

                                           = Om Shri Guru =         

 

                             

 

 Offering

 

 This website is humbly offered at the lotus feet of my most revered Master and Lord, 

Swami Chidvilasanada. 

 

This offering is in the form of a sharing; a sharing with all who come this way. It comprises of words received internally within my mind, directly from Shri Guru through Her divine inner responses to contemplative prayers, fears, requests, cries for support, and questions offered internally at Her lotus feet. 

 

 

Shri Guru is the most visible form of Atman, that Consciousness within which the force creating all existence and non-existence pervades. Her divine grace is of the essence of ahaituki krpa; bestowed forever of its own accord in unqualified measure and limitless abundance, requiring nothing off me. Hers is the grace of Lord Shiva, caring little for what I was or still am, yet never letting me go. 

 

By Her grace alone I exist. My obligation is eternal. 

 

 

Though addressed to me, often on deep personal matters, these inner conveyances from the divine Master offer value to all.  Besides, Shri Guru has mentioned in some contemplations that Her words be spread to others. Hence this offering.

 

Residing deep within, She watches everything and responds. Her caring, uplifting and supportive divine inner presence exists in my heart, as it does in all beings.     

 

The miracle of her unseen, yet ceaselessly ongoing support and guidance, forgiveness and protection, became evident to me when numerous haphazardly stored papers were discovered when searching through old notes to prepare for a retreat. They contained hurriedly jotted contemplations spanning many years. Completely forgotten, I had no recollection they existed. 

   

Now, decades later, I awaken at last to the responsibility towards all other beings and towards sadhana, which the supreme Master had desired from the very first.

 

May the benevolent gaze of Shri Guru bless this humble offering. May rising up to Her grace and to Her holy messages, without faltering in faith, shraddha, humility, gratitude, watchfulness and discipline, finally become a fortitude.   

 

May the loving blessings, grace and protection of Shri Guru be bestowed upon all who stop by to read, upon all of humanity, and indeed upon the whole of Her magnificent creation.   

 

                                                                                              Om Guru Om 

 

          

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1 Apr/May 1998
Excerpts -
The Ashram schedule is seva
(directions from Shri Guru, as received within)

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“…such a mysterious process that starts working within you when you do these practices as per the Ashram schedule. It is for the good of you as a seeker and for all others in GSP for they are all students too.

“The unfolding of their sadhana and the achievement of their aims and goals for which they have positioned themselves there....is just this – that they must attend to the schedule diligently and with disregard for all their personal matters. The Ashram schedule is holy. It is an honest and pure offering that can be made to God, to the Siddhas, to the Guru, to Lord Shiva .....

“... You will miss nothing if you attend to the schedule, but you will miss a lot if you....are tardy in making it to the sacred places when the activities of the schedule take place. A whole lot will be missed and years may go by without an active push to their sadhana.

“Seva is the only thing that should get highest priority.... And seva itself is the schedule. The whole of the daily schedule is seva...chanting is seva..aratis are seva..meditation is seva.
“Only those will loose sight of the aim of their being in GSP who are lax in attending the daily schedule..." (2018)

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